In Ps 19 David wisely realize that no matter how hard we try, we make mistakes and errors. “Who can discern his errors? Declare me innocent from hidden faults. Keep back your servant also from presumptuous sins… then I shall be blameless.” (v.13.14)
Almost every day I ask myself where did I make a mistake, how did I error, what are the things I didn’t see, missed or procrastinated. Errors, hidden mistakes, weaknesses are not intentional sins of the will. I can honestly say that in all my life since I became His follower, my intention is what David writes: “I have kept the ways of the LORD, and have not wickedly departed from my God. For all his rules were before me, and his statutes I did not put away from me…” (Ps 18:21) BUT I experience that God lets me into errors and mistakes; He lets me struggle with my weaknesses and faults that I don’t see and are hidden before my eyes. Is it possible to walk with God and still make mistakes and have errors, faults, make wrong decisions? If not than it means that whoever walks with God will never make a mistake, will never make a bad decision and will never suffer from his/her weaknesses? Did Paul or Barnabas was not walking with God when they had a conflict? Who was right? Which one made the bad decision? Our errors, mistakes, weaknesses, faults are teaching tools in Gods hand to keep us humble and to help us realize that everything on this earth is imperfect and temporary. Don’t fear to error and to make a mistake, but don’t seek to make one, either. Just accept that we all have errors and faults we don’t see.
We always seek the perfect solution, the perfect decision, the perfect situation and the perfect people. This desire of ours for perfection is a sign of being created for the image of God. He installed this desire in our soul that we would constantly face with frustration in this imperfect world and would realize that only He can fulfill this desire. David realized that even the man who delights in the Word of God can be a subject and the object of faults and errors in a fallen world and. The excessive fear of making mistakes and errors can paralyze us. As a leader this is a depressing responsibility. What percentage of my decisions that influenced families and ministries were mistakes? Many decisions’ consequences are only visible after many years or decades. Not to face with the possibility of errors and mistakes is arrogance. Not to make a decision because of the possibility of errors and mistakes is ignorance, irresponsibility and cowardice. Unfortunately, to many Christian leaders are either paralyzed in cowardice and their decisions are not reflecting any faith. Or on the other hand they are in the infallible arrogance where they vindicate spiritual authority for themselves and tossing people into irresponsible and unreasonable sacrifices. Most of the decisions carry risks and the possibility of errors. Jonathan’s attempt to attack the enemy carried on obvious opportunity to fail. But if he was not willing to take the risk and doesn’t take the ownership over a possible error, than he would have never win the battle. (1Sam 14:6)
Our hidden weaknesses can be obvious for others. Arrogance and pride can hinder us from accepting others to speak into our weaknesses. Only the humble can remain blameless – says David in the Psalm quoted above. The anti-doze of errors is not perfection or perfect decisions, but humility. Humility realizes our own limitations and our dependence on God and others.